Ugh.

So after the lappy went flying, I figured it was smart to do some backups. I am soooooo glad I have that 120 gigs of doom. I've become an efficiency freak about storage now, and wow it feels good.

The rest I have no energy for, especially at nearly 3am. (It will likely be long past when this gets posted). It's been a rough week but not a disastrous one. Not nearly as bad as fall either, although I was quite annoyed last week over something stupidly childish. Suffice it to say that I've been thinking a bit more about where I belong and where I need to be lately. Still, again, not as bad as fall. But I really want certain things to come together in the next few weeks. If they don't, so be it, I have options and I can soldier on.

But I don't want to.

Maybe a bit further than that: I don't think I should anymore.

Beyond that even: I think it's time.

*shrugs*

It is out of my hands. I can only play the part as best I can, play the cards as best I can. Trust me when I say I'm doing that far better than many I know; I've always had a knack for stretching things. But regardless, a lot of major course changes for my life could occur -- no, ARE going to occur -- in the next 10 months. How and what they are I don't know -- I know what I'd like them to be but not necessarily what they *will* be.

If only I'd done all this five years ago!

Meanwhile one friend is getting hard to get ahold of (though I've been guilty of the same thing of late), but another seems to have just drifted away. This is one of the tragedies of life, to lose someone who you feel a great connection with on both sides, all because a common interest has disappeared. I hope he does well in whatever he takes on next, but I suspect our paths will cross less and less. Sucks.

3:07 am. Sleep time.