Expectations

I didn't really expect to get the job. In fact, I expected not to. The goal, if anything, was to get "positive face time" with the interviewers. And the job was practically tailors for me. To be honest, even with the school thing in the way, I was and am the best candidate for it. My anticipation of a no was based on what I considered to be an expected bias against not having my education finished. Point is, I expected a no. In some ways I almost wanted it, cause getting the job would have messed with many of my plans.

But to not get a call....

To have to call them back and ask what had happened....

To learn I hadn't even made the interview cut.

I'm relieved to not get the job, and relieved to not have to wonder any more. But I'm just a slight bit disappointed that I didn't even get an interview. I find it highly unlikely they found anyone with a comparable level of skill combinations to me, with or without the degree. But they've made their choice, and my target -- of getting to meet the interview people and make a good first impression on them for later benefit -- remains unreached.

Of course there's other craziness afoot. But knowing the reputation of a certain Dragon who plays gatekeeper, I expect *that* particular application was basically flushed down a toilet, unread.

So be it.

But in the meanwhile I'm still backing out of commitments where I can. I can tell. A breaking point is nearing. I may get past it, or I may not, but I have to do *something* and if I'm tied down by commitments I have no room to maneuver with.